This isn't one of those 'look how much fun we had today' posts.  It's one of those 'I might go crazy any day now posts'.  Just so you know.

 This week teachers sent out the bi-weekly progress reports.  One of my kids had 16 missing math assignments and a few missing history assignments.  Another kid had 11 missing reading assignments, assorted science assignments, and 4 or 5 other missing assignments from assorted subjects.  I've been working with Anni- she had about 30 pages of homework from the days she missed for her surgeries.  We're probably down to about 10- but I had to take her for a check up this morning, so she's missed another day.  I haven't seen an email for the 4th kid yet, but I was told yesterday by this child that there was 1 missing assignment but it's done now.  Every day after school we come home and sit at the table for homework.  I sit at the table with the kids for at least an hour, some days more.  I was completely shocked when I found out about all the missing assignments!  What more can I do?   All the kids are grounded- except Anni- it's not her fault she's behind- but the other kids, yeah,  I'm a little mad and disappointed with them.

Did I mention that I hate being cold and I've been cold for about 6 months straight now?  Enough of winter.  Enough.

The last 2 weeks have been really busy with 2 surgeries for Annika and 3 follow-up appointments-with another scheduled in about 10 days,  all at Primary Childrens- an hour drive each way.  With gas at a million bucks a gallon- it's taking a toll.  Oh- and have you tried putting eye drops in your kid's eyes?  It's hard.  I've been doing it at least 4 times a day for a few weeks now.  Yes, there have been a few instances where I've lost my patience, laid Annika on the floor and sat on her so I could get the drops in.  Nathan has also had 3 visits to the dentist.  He had 4 cavities.  With is oral sensory issues, we had to split up the visits and get him a prescription for a sedative both times.  Good thing about this:  the dentist is only in Stansbury Park.  He did okay, and I'm really thankful we didn't have to pay to have him go to the hospital and have the dental work done under general anesthesia. 

I never get sick.  It's been years.  Well- of course, I got sick the week before Annika's first surgery.  It took me a good 2 weeks to feel almost normal.  I still have the dumb cough. 

My calling.  2nd counselor in Relief Society.  The weekly presidency meetings,the weekly visits, the v.t. interviews,  the monthly committee meetings for the monthly activity, the monthly activity-which includes planning-(remember my planning phobia) , working with a pushy, opinionated person that has to have everything her way-right down to telling me what color of balloons I have to buy, and lots of time away from the family.  Don't forget the complaining of husband that I'm always gone and I might as well still be working.  Oh yeah, and I have to teach this Sunday in R.S.  I hate teaching.  Especially when I don't have a topic or lesson plan to guide me.  I still don't have a topic chosen, and the R.S. President said no Living Scriptures DVDs.  Rude.

If that stuff's not enough, I've got more,  but I don't want to be too Debbie Downer.   Also, I know all this stuff is trivial, and I am thankful it is, but sometimes all the little stuff adds up and I trip over it and fall.

I went to the gym yesterday and today (yep- 2 days in a row!), so maybe I'll start losing the 16 pounds I've gained since last summer, and running always lifts me up a little.  I love my kids and Ryan- they are a blessing.   There's lots of things and people that are wonderful in my life.  The last few days I've felt like I'm peeking over the rim of the big pit I've been in for a while.  Hopefully the edge I'm climbing up onto won't crumble and send be back down. 

Sorry.  I had to vent.